What you want now is be considered not anymore a Gay/Bisexual man but a woman, without see a competent medic for a hormonal therapy, maybe followed by a sex change surgical operation? Like anything, just believing/decide that you are/want something it's not enough for be/got what you want (except in specific situations, which anyway if you aren't lucky or with a minimum competence could be harmful in long term).Make your claims and life choises concrete: Not hide trough clothes, change for real.